I don't need a man

I don’t need a man. I can raise my kids and I make enough money to live on. I don’t get why I want one so bad. Its really not sex either. I like it. I like it a lot, but I could live forever without having it with a man I didn’t care for. Its not the companionship. I like my own company, I have my kids and the rest of our ever expanding family, and plenty of friends online and off. I definitely do not need any more emotional crap from someone....I have enough of my own for 20 people. It must be some kind of inborn survival instinct. All I know is I am miserable without love until I am miserable with it. But the times between the misery....OMG....That is heaven to me